Seven Shades of Suicide

Sometimes I wish we were like people of far northern hemisphere cultures who have (or had, legendarily) many words for ice & snow: we could benefit by having a broader range of words for one of the most laden S-words we know…the early death of someone by their own choice.

Too-early for those of us left behind – the suicide survivors. Untimely – really, there’s never a good time to die this way. Unexpected (most of the time). Unbelievable, to those of us who don’t have serious suicidal thoughts.

We often feel abandoned, angry & anguished, overwhelmed, distraught & distressed. We’re left with the unimaginable task of picking up the pieces, & facing the exhausting Ten Thousand What Ifs. Intense grief can persist for a long time – way beyond what’s considered ‘normal’.

For the living, so many things feel unfinished, unsaid, regretted, undone (…although let’s let go right away of the notion that all will be finished, said, & wrapped up without regret even in the ‘well-lived’ life: there will always be things left undone).

The father of our grandson died of suicide last fall. Our daughter K died of suicide in 2004.

Suicide is the 10th most common cause of death in the U.S.; over 60% of gun deaths are suicides. Its association with mental illness is strong (up to 90%), but correlation statistics are weak due to our persistent cultural avoidance of rational approaches to mental illness. So, mental illness is a likely factor when someone dies by suicide (with the exception of old age suicide, see below), but we may or may not have much understanding of the role mental illness played in the person’s life &/or death. Which can multiply the complication factor even more. & which makes it even more difficult for those left behind.

It’s no wonder then, with this exponentially complicated death, that many human religions developed moral codes condemning & silencing talk about suicide. The person who killed themselves was labeled ‘bad’ – sometimes not even worthy of a burial – which shamed & blamed the family of survivors. Also, pervasive (& legitimate) worry about ‘suicide contagion‘ continues to limit healthy conversation.

Humans have learned that it’s best not to talk about it.

Except that, for survivors, it wasn’t. It isn’t. Not-talking actually increased the pain of being a survivor by several magnitudes, but no one knew because no one was talking.

Maybe having better words can help us talk about it.

What’s most important to the living after someone dies is: 1 – our relationship with them, & 2 – knowing how they died. How we grieve & eventually reach acceptance of a death is a complex combination of the two.

Our experience of the suicide of another is deeply affected by our relationship with that person. Those relationships need more descriptive words – to help us, the living, figure out less isolating ways to survive this common kind of death:

Suicide of one’s parent. Suicide of one’s child. Suicide of one’s sibling. Suicide of one’s spouse. Suicide of an ex-spouse. Suicide of a close relative. Suicide of a friend. 

Friend of a suicide survivor.

(Old-age & terminal illness suicide is different altogether. Death is imminent, & the elder or ill person is choosing the time of their death at what they know is the end of life. This is another, & will be increasingly common, death that needs a more descriptive word than the current, commonly used term assisted suicide.)

Other kinds of suicide need better words too: camouflaged suicide, famous person suicide, copycat suicide, militarized suicide, cultural suicide…no doubt there are many more.

Human primates have learned to survive the death of another – it’s one of the fundamental reasons for religion. Now, we need to use our (essential-but-really-only-a-few-thousand-years-old) knowledge of the real world [a.k.a science] to build a better path for those of us who must survive our varied relationships with this particularly complicated death.

We have to talk about it.


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7 Responses to Seven Shades of Suicide

  1. pat busch says:

    A very good piece on a most difficult subject. Thank you

  2. I used to worry about my son. In fact, he used to worry about himself. As a teenager, he told me that the only thing that kept him moving forward was the black hole that was sucking him in. Scary stuff. Fortunately for us, his issues were related to an anti-depressant he was taking. Only later did science realize that these medications can affect young people quite differently than they affect the rest of us. But for a while, it was worrisome to wonder if someday he’d not be able to handle the stuff going on in his head.

    One of my daughter’s friends ended his life after suffering from PTSD after leaving the Marines. It affected her deeply. Her friend left behind a young child. How do these kids handle it when a parent ends his or her own life? I’m sure the child at some point wonders why the parent abandoned them. It’s a worthy question. But at the same time, mental illness shows no mercy to those who suffer from it.

    You’re correct about “elderly suicide.” Recently, a friend of mine also committed suicide. But this person was one of those who had received news about a terminal illness. Perhaps preferring not to endure the inevitable slide downhill, suicide seemed like the only reasonable option. We all can understand that decision.

    Thanks for talking about it.

  3. Two years ago, I was prescribed a trial course of three weeks of a well-known antidepressant.

    The trial will not be repeated. If I had expected the rest of my life to be as it was when on the medication, then despite loving family and caring friends I would have chosen to die by my own hand. The alienation I felt from the world and myself was far worse than the original condition.

    It may, in retrospect, have moved me out of the miserable rut I was stuck in, and to which I have not returned. Who knows? But I would now most strongly urge that anyone prescribed antidepressants be told very plainly that they can, at any time, just stop taking them.

  4. George Newell says:

    I’m thinking that there are 3 things that are important to those of us living after someone’s death. The two you mention; 1 our relationship with them and 2, how they died, and I would add how they lived. Maybe that is what you mean by our relationship with them. If they lived full, admirable lives or empty indistinguishable lives affects how we remember them and how we cope with the loss of them.

  5. Ginger says:

    I agree said subject needs to be less stigmatized and more talked about.

  6. Ginger Downs says:

    A brave well written dissertation on a hush-hush subject. Right/write on Linda. And thank you my dear.

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